30/06

today is the last day of jun ... 16 more days is your birthday liao ... i waiting for it for so long oledi ... just to wish you happy birthday ... dun be sad ... actually 我们的各自的母亲都是为我们好的，只是方法错了。。。 如果他们都能理解我们的伤痛就好了。。。有人说过一句话。。。我觉得很对。。。那就是：在这世上，不管是爸或妈都不能了解自己的孩子真正需要的是什么。。。就算是亲生的也一样。。。对吗？每当被吗了后，虽然很生气。。。可是一但想起你。。。我就很开心了。。。 我爱你。。。但这一辈子我已没有机会了。。。真希望下一辈子还有机会认识你。。。一辈子都真心真意的爱你。。。永不改变。。。 我这一生没有什么遗憾了。。。就只是后悔做了对不起你的事。。。真希望可以得到一次机会。。。让我改过。。。 永远爱你。。。可是那只是我想要的。。。也许这一辈子我再也不会有酱的机会了。。。但是我只想爱你罢了。。。

28/06

today sleep till 9.30 ... when wake up ... i feel very tired and muscle cramp ... coz going to exam liao ... everyday practice ... saw your blog ... when i noe that you cure liao and feel better liao ... i very very happy ... happy until jump here jump there ... jump until my dad ask me why i jumping around ... i said dunno ... hehe ... dun believe leh ... but is true ... 2 more days ... i going to die ... school exam ... and the exam ... haiz ... very very tired liao ... gonna sleep liao ... finally ... i miss u and love u forever ...

Tagged by Rachel ~

1.The person who tag you __Rachel

2. Your relationship with him/her is __One of My Best friend

3. Your first impression of him/her is ___erm ... pretty gua ...

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is __ no gua ...

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is ___dun sad lo. cheer up ^^

6. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that ___She is too good liao ...

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do ___ dun choi her gua ... hehe

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ___ Argue for certain of things ?

9. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is ___ Wish her and VJ be happy lorh ...

10. Your overall impression on him/her is ___ better than me ... hehe

11. The characteristic you hate most about yourself ___ Tempered ... Flower heart ...

12. The most ideal person you want to be is___ not flower heart ... not tempered ... stupid ...

13. For people who care and love you, say something to them ___ Thx for everything ya ...

14. Pass this quiz to 10 people who want to know how they feel about you :-

1 Xi Chen
2 Teck hong
3 Sarah
4 Shu xuan
5 Voon jiat
6 Kah wei
7 Step
8 Lang
9 Joelissa
10 Apple

16. Who is 6(Kah wei) having relationship with?- nope ...

17. Is 9(Joelissa) a male or a female?- not sure ...

18.What is 2(Teck hong) studying at the moment?- Pmr

19. Who was the last person you had a chat with?- Lang

20. What kind of music does 8(Lang) like?- English song lorh ...

21. Does 1(Xi Chen) have any sibling?- yaya

22. Is 4(Shu xuan) single?- i think no ... coz she told me de ...

23. What is the surname of 5(Voon jiat)?- Lim

24. What's the hobby of 3(Sarah)?- Erm ... Online lorh ... badminton i think ... and more ...

25. Do 9 (Joelissa)and 7(Step) get along well?- ya gua ...

26. Where is 10(Apple) studying at?- Katholik

27. Say something casual about your eyes - Small ... like pig eyes ... wakaka ...

28. Have you tried developing feelings for 2(Teck Hong)?- no ...

29. Where does 9(Zhen yu) lives?- Wawasan

30. What colour does 4(Shu xuan) like?- dunno ...

31. Are 5(Voon jiat) and 1 (Xi Chen)good friends?- no ... they dunno each other ...

32. Does 2(Teck hong) like 7(Step)?- of coz no la ...

33. How did you get to know 8(Lang)?- since form 1 ... i dunno how to spell her name ... then she
said zzz ... haha

34. Does 3(Sarah) have any pets?- no gua ...

35. Is 7(Step) the sexiest person in the world?- dunno ... not interested

36. Are you sexy?- i am boy ...

37. What am i doing now?- missing u ...


I'm tagging the following the 10 persons below

1 Xi Chen
2 Teck hong
3 Sarah
4 Shu xuan
5 Voon jiat
6 Kah wei
7 Step
8 Lang
9 Joelissa
10 Apple

26/06 bad mood

today argue wit my mom ... really sad ... maybe ... i should not born in this family ...
no wonder wad i do ... she will just said not good ...
althought i had tried my best ... she will said i never tried my best ...
sometimes i got a bit hate her de ... becoz ... as a mom ... she din even noe wad i like ...
wad is my hobby ... she only noe how to paksa me to do the thing tat i dun like ...
i noe she do many thing is just to let be become a useful people ...
but does she ever care bout my feeling ?
everytime when i got good result ... i will be very happy ...
i hope the school will end faster ... to let me bring the good new to my mom ...
but when she saw the result ... she will just said : " good , do it better next time ... but after that she will say : why y dun get higher marks for this paper ...
u are not stupid u noe ... i noe u haven try your best ... "
i tried all my best to get this result ... but mom my din even care ... she just noe how to scold ...
i hate her ...
sometimes i tried to tell my feelings to her ... but she always will give the same response ...
no time no time !!! dint u see i am busy of my thing ?
haiz ... sometimes i feel that if i left 1 month de life time ... then will be good ...
becoz when tat time ... they sure will put all their time on me ...
for this ... i had beged the god for many times ... to let me sick ...
today ... really no mood ... thx to sarah and lang ... for chatting wit me ...
mui mui (lang) thx for chating wit me and make me happy ya ... and sarah ... thx for everything ya ...

25/06

today we go puteri there de badminton court play badminton wit voon jiat, zhen yu, sean, and jun jie ... after that voon jiat's mom put me at the puteri giant there de bus stop ... then i wait for the bus lorh ... wait for ages liao ... then the bus finally come ... when the bus started to go ... the bus never go straight to ioi there ... but go until the taman puchong utama there ... Han ming primary school there ... onli turn back ... zzz ... let the bas za dao ... when reach home ... my mom scold me for 2 hours ... zzz ... finally ... the last thing ... still the same ... i love u ... miss u too ... how are u ? getting better liao ? worry u for few days liao ... pls dun give up our sentiment ... i really love u ...

24/06

[那些字语
不懂你是不是在说...
我当做没看到~]

虽然我知道你很讨厌我，很恨我。。。
无论我说什么。。。
都不能让你改变你对我的看法。。。
我不知道要说什么，也不会说好话。。。
可是我的部落格所说的。。。
都是发自内心的。。。所以请相信我。。。
那些话都是我说的。。。你说你当做没看到。。。
我的心就有如被撕烂了一样。。。
今天补习，我无意中听到有个补习的朋友在小学和你同班的。。。
他名叫yap wai sam 的 。。。我问了他许多关与你的东西。。。
知道你是个好班长。。。好学生。。。
他让我想起了我们的回忆。。。
还记得以前我们以前都是以信来交谈的。。。
还记得家泰是我们的邮差。。。哈哈。。。
常常跑上跑下就为了帮我们送信。。。
我想我真的要好好报答他。。。
我们常谈一些有的没有的。。。
但是我却很开心。。。因为是在和你交谈。。。
我想你应该已经忘记了那段回忆吧？
每当我想起那些日子时。。。
我都会不尽笑了起来。。。
我知你一定会说我很假。。。
可是这都是真的。。。
听说你身病了。。。
我一直想知道你的病情。。。
可是你却不理我。。。
你知道我有多担心吗？
知道你病了，我天天都睡不好，
就为了等你的信息，希望你可以发短信告诉我。。。
你的情况。。。
我发觉我爱你已经超过了一且。。。
我爱你。。。永远都爱。。。

last paper de marks ... and kedudukan i think ... ^.^

bm finally give out liao ...
let the paper za dao ... got 64 only ...
but the purata is 78.5 ...
so i got the 2nd place in class ...
haiz ... why got 2nd ...
i din't even touch the book ...
keep thinking bout you ...

23/06 心痛。。。

今天我刚知道你病了。。。
有如一支毒箭射到了我的心一样。。。
我的心好痛。。。
我恨自己现在不能在你身边照顾你。。。

i love you

its ok that u dun wan to give me the chance ... but i just wan to tell you that i will love you as long as i live and until forever ... i know it is impossible to make u trust my words now ... but the time can prove my words ... it is also impossible for me to get off your life ... only if i am dead ... pls hate me ... becoz if u hate me more ... my heart will love you more ... becoz you are the only person in my life who i love forever and i won't change my love for you ... i miss you ...

Tagged by Apple ~

Rules and regulation of the tag: All 21 people must do unless you don’t have a blog. Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your head. And then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess all of them. After doing this, tag your unlucky friends to do the same.

1. Xi Chen
2. Teck hong
3. sarah
4. kah wei
5. shi ler
6. apple
7. zhen yu
8. voon jiat
9. rachel
10. sam win
11. sin wei
12. lang
13. joe
14. nam jie
15. cavy
16. xin hui
17. douglas
18. liang han
19. jason
20. evelyn
21. shu xuan


1.How did you meet 7 (Zhen yu)?
= form 1 ...

2.What would you do if you and 15 had never met (Xin hui)?
= dunno

3.What would you do if 20 and 1 dated (evelyn& xi chen)?
= no idea ...

4.Have you seen 17 cried (douglas)?
= no ...

5.Would 4 and 16 make a good couple (kah wei&xin hui)?
= they have lover ler ...

6.Do you think 11 is attractive (sin wei)?
= of coz ... she so beautiful ^.^

7.What’s 2 favorite colour (teck hong)?
= black ...

8.When was the last time you talked to 9 (rachel)?
= friday lorh ...

9.What language does 8 speak (rachel)?
= chinese , english , cantonese and ...

10.Who is 13 going out with (joe)?
= lang lorh ...

11.Would you ever date 17 (douglas )?
= ya ... and date all my frenz lorh ...

12.Where does 18 live (liang han)?
= merak lorh ...

13.What is the best thing about 4 (kah wei)?
= good fren ...

14.What would you like to tell 10 right now (sam win)?
= noob .. hehe

15.What is the best thing about 20 (evelyn)?
= a best fren of me ...

16.Have you ever kiss 2 (teck hong)?
= no ... of coz ... he is boy ...

17.What is the best memory you have of 5 (shi ler)?
= dunno ...

18.When’s the next time you’re going to see 4 (kah wei)?
= monday ...

19.How is 7 different from 6 (zhen yu,apple)?
= boy/girl

20.Is 2 pretty (teck hong)?
= say leng zhai can la ...

21.What was your 1st impression of 15 (cavy)?
= cute >.<

22.How did you meet 3 (sarah)?
= tis year same class

23.Is 5 your best friend (shi ler)?
= of coz ...

24.Do you hate 12 (lang)?
= of coz no ... she is my mui mui

25.Have you seen 18 in the last month (liang han)?
= of coz ... basketball mah ...

26.When was the last time you saw 16 (xin hui)?
= thursday ...

27.Have you been to 5’s house (shi ler)?
= nope ...

28.When’s the next time you’ll see 10 (sam win)?
= monday lorh ...

29.Are you close to 11 (sin wei)?
= nope ...

30.Have you been to the movies with 4 (kah wei)?
= Nope ...

31.Have you gotten in trouble with 8 (voon jiat)?
= no ...

32.Would you give 19 a hug (jason)?
= ya ... goodbye hug ... coz he change school liao ...

33.When have you lied to 3 (sarah)?
= no ...

34.Is 11 good at socializing (sin wei)?
= ya. A good friend

37.What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9 (rachel)?
= one of my best fren ...

43.Has 21 met your parents (shu xuan)?
= nope ...

45.Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3 (kah wei)?
= ya ...

46.Do you live close to 7 (zhen yu)?
= nope ...

47.What is 8’s favourite food (voon jiat)?
= dunno ... must ask rachel ...

48.What kind of car does 1 have (Xi Chen)?
= dunno ... maybe ...

49.Have you traveled anywhere with 9 (rachel)?
= nope ...

50.If you give 14 a $100, what would she/he spend it on (nam jie)?
= dunno ...

21/06

if some day ... i have a chance to change a thing in my life ... i would go back to standard 6 ... to change myself becoz of being a flowerheart guy ... i would cherish u from the day u become my lover until forever ... i won't let your heart being hurt deeply by me ... but ... would you give me a chance to prove that i still love you ?

19/06 考试成绩

考卷今天重算派完了，只是马来文还没派。。。说什么我的老师不够经验，要别的老师来改我们的马来文考卷。真的给他炸到！
华语-72
英语-70
科学-92
数学-88
历史-72
地理-94
KH-76
马来文-？
图画-56 。。。

重算还及格。。。
这次考试虽然没有以前的好。。。可是我却很开心，因为我终于不用活在一个不是我所拥有的世界里，常被人家说我骄傲的世界里，被人约束的世界里。。。以前的我认为只要考好成绩就可以拥有一且，可是我错了，为了考试，我失去了好友，失去了童年，更失去了我的爱。。。我现在觉悟了，以前我的脸是快乐的，可是内心却很伤心。。。很伤心。。。我也终于了解佛学大师所说的“要活的快乐，就必须先把对物质的欲望度调到最低，一且顺其自然就好”，的道理。。。我觉得我自由了，从恐惧的世界解放了出来！！！

tagged by sarah ^.^

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
Face gua

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
Tired ... hope to sleep more ...

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
Cousin i think ...

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
ya ...

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
of course yes ... save people is good ^.^

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
ya ... i think ...

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
ya ... my self ... coz i hate myself ...

8. What does your last text message say ?
Good nite ... Sweet dreamz ...

9. What are you thinking right now ?
thinking of her ...

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
ya ... to be wit my heart

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
1.30 ... coz updating the blog ...

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
Jusco ... i think ...

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
of couse !

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
her lorh ...

TEN people to do the quiz ;

1. Xi chen
2. Teck hong
3. Voon jiat
4. Liang han
5. Wei bing
6. Sarah
7. Kah wei
8. Shi ler
9. Zhen yu ...
10. Joelissa

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ? (teck hong)
ask him lorh ... XD

16. Is no.1 a male or a female ? (xi chen)
female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good? (Kah wei , Xi chen
They are girl ...

18. What is no.1 studying? (xi chen)
PMR

20.Is no.4 single ? (Liang han )
It's very very complicated

21. Say something about no.2? (teck hong)
Smile always XDDD

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ? (Voon Jiat , Sarah )
Both of them have their heart oledi lorh ...

23. Describe no.9 (zhen yu)
Dota dota ... every day dota ... zz

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ? (Kah wei , Sarah)
call their lover to stop them lorh ... hahaha

25. Do you like 8 ?
ya ... as one of my best fren ...

26.then do u like 9?
ya ... as one of my brothers ...

12/06

今天可以算是我默默的等你的第二个月了。。。以前人家说爱一个人就会去算时间。。。我听了觉得很好笑。。。因为以前的我不曾认真对待过感情的事。。。我以前认为爱情只是人生的一种过程。。。更认为爱我的人会自己追来。。。所以我不会去珍惜。。。可是我错了。。。原来我如果不去珍惜。。。爱人不管有多爱你，最后都会离开的。。。我知道我可能已经被你从你的心和脑海了都删除掉了。。。可是你在我的心里却已然有完全的位置。。。朋友都认为我疯了。。。因为我和朋友交谈时我都会说到你。。。也许吧。。。因为我还是对你有以前的那份感觉，那份情。。。我以前有个朋友，他是个星座大师。。。我以前是完全不信星座的。。。当我和你在一起的时候，我曾经随便的问他关于你的星座~巨蟹座，他说：即使你今天离开了她，等你想清楚了，迟早还是会想要回到她的身边的，因为没人会像她那样爱你了。我笑了笑，叫他不要看太多星座书，以免会变成个傻瓜。。。可是现在我相信他说的话了。。。当初我对不起你，可是现在却想要回到你身旁。。。我终于感受到你当时的感觉了。。。也许你再也不会给我机会了。。。可是我还是爱着你的。。。

finally can online ...

every day working ... now finally can online ... online also dun dare to put my status to online ... coz i scare when u see me online then u will appear offline or something else ... haiz ... projek projek ... die lorh ... haven start also ... and the teacher said the sejarah de hasil kajian must 15 page !!! zzz ... i think she got prob de ... 15 page ... i think find the data like wad wad pengasas , asal usul , nama bangunan also must take ages to complete ... zzz ... today the stupid sam win ask me send him the sejarah projek de data ... send until almost complete liao ... then he suddenly off ... zzz ... let him za dao ... holiday very sienz ... everyday morning go play basketball ... then go eat breakfast ... then at home watch movie ... my computer going hot until explode liao ... on for 5 days never off ... coz downloading 20++ movie ... download and watch ... my eyes going to burn liao ... zzz ... today is bad day ... when playing basketball ... i broke my leg ... zzz ... now walk also hard ... haiz ... cham ... one more thing is ... today let people 放飞机 。。。zzz ... today really bad day ... but ... if i miss u ... no matter how bad is the day ... it will become the best day of my life ...